I miss thunder storms

If you think about it, the world really is coming to an inevitable end and only we as a collective society, scratch that, collective world can stop this.

Nissan just cut 20,000 jobs.

The world is in a depression- That's right. i said it. Global warming is ruining out arable earth, and war is killing our people.
Yet no one really stops in the middle of the sidewalk to look up and wonder anymore. Why is it that our main goal is to ruin the planet and existance of life as we know it? Not just for our grandchildren and great grandchildren, but for every single person on the planet.

I see alot of these wana be pop star teens around the mall and on the street with those must have trendy-fad "go green" shirts, bags, buttons, and other apparel, and I crave to ask one.... so... you bought the shirt... what else have you done? I can be quite honest and say im pretty sure i'm not doing a whole heap. I use public transportation and all my garbage gets separated, but still. Going green is not a fad. Its not a trend. It's a new way of life that will save the planet. Your small emission of fossil fuel when you drive your SUV (my entire family drives them... GUILTY) is changing the way the earth operates. The way you commute, what you eat, what you wear, the gas and electricity you use and even the makeup you wear all have a degrading effect on the earth.

With all this talk of whose administration screwed us over the worst (BIAS: BUSH YOU SUCK- FUCKING WAR) F* em all. Let's stop pushing blame and lets start to rebuild shall we?

I've been reading this awesome book called Hot, Flat and Crowded by Thomas Friedman. And the loser Economist inside me LOVES this book. Its fascinating. its critical, its true. It's everything about the earth (and the way we are running it into the ground) that no one bothers to tell us. You see, the general consensus in this book is that people are afraid to talk about this so called *Global warming* issue because it will turn into a political mess. Gosh darn politics ruin everything. This book is cynical and pushes blame on the real culprits. All of us. The way we live our lives, the way we put capitalism and Nihilism on a higher pedestal than Mother nature or God for that matter. I didn't think this book would be of any interest to me, because i'm not that earthy. But then I realized I am... I camp, I love it. I travel, I never want to leave. I admire all of mother nature and God's handiwork, and as this book points out, if we continue on this trajectory of detrimental behavior, all of this pristine earth and everything that we love in it, will be gone. It is starting to deteriorate at an exponential rate and it's not going to stop unless our behavior changes. It leaves me feeling helpless because I want it to stay like this forever and ever. P.s. I miss thunderstorms. I haven't heard a thunderstorm in a long time. But not a torrential thunderstorm. A nice one. I want the summer to come so I can sleep with the windows open and hear the grasshoppers in the lawn. I haven't heard the grasshoppers in a long time...

I think that supermarkets should start charging for plastic bags...

We have several theories here for the future of the world. We have on one side Samuel Huntingtons theory of the clash of civilization which states

It is my hypothesis that the fundamental source of conflict in this new world will not be primarily ideological or primarily economic. The great divisions among humankind and the dominating source of conflict will be cultural. Nation states will remain the most powerful actors in world affairs, but the principal conflicts of global politics will occur between nations and groups of different civilizations. The clash of civilizations will dominate global politics. The fault lines between civilizations will be the battle lines of the future.

and then on the other side we have Thomas Friedman who says that the world is basically a bad biological experiment. And when we hit the wall the impact would be such as if we weren't wearing any seatbelts or had any airbags. In his own words he sums up that biodiversity bequeaths resilience and without that we can't deal with the "global changes rapidly descending upon us." True. Every twenty seconds another species is becoming extinct. True GLOBAL WARMING. Not political. FACT.

And then in the middle we have others like Nostradamus who says that the world is going to end in 2021 anyway.

I believe that later is too late. So whatever we are going to save, We'd better start saving now.

I have high hopes and plans for my future. However its the state that the world is in right now that puts my mood in a damper. I am still optimistic. I still smile. I still travel and learn. I like books. I like life. I don't think anything can stop that. But when my grasshoppers stop chirping, or my moms eagles stop hanging out on top of the tree at the end of the street, or my Daddy's beloved Fish creek ponds reports the extinction of everylife form living in the creek THEN IM GOING TO BE PISSED. I don't know what the future hold and that scares me. For the time being I will remain confident in the initiative of our generation of youth ( ? ) To be decided.




That was my rant.

I am back in Germany if you couldn't already tell. Classes haven't begun yet they start next week. I arrived on Tuesday and spent the week in bed. Literally. Sleeping off a month of hangovers, food, headaches, and jitters. I stayed up till 5 in the morning and slept till 3 in the afternoon. it's quite a bad cycle to break actually. Most of my work gets done late at night, i'm more inspired. Anywhoo. I've been resting and reading, and sorting through things for the coming semester. it seems like this semester is going to go alot quicker than the first. It's because I know the ropes and know what to expect. That, and I already have most of my trips for the semester planned.
Friday night was the first night that I "Went Out" "Going Out" entails staying out all night, dancing the night away, and getting made up. Well, we went to Nachssicht, which is in heidelberg, Gillian and I, Will and david. It was a fun time. We then trapsed around Heidelberg finding other forms of amusement. It was overall a good night.




The next day we woke up and went to RUGBY! I LOVE RUGBY DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Germany was playing Georgia (Russia) and they lost horribly. The Georgians played a good game. They are darn fierce. Next weekend, On valentines day, there is another game. Germany against Romania. I LOVE ROMANIA! They are in my top three favorite rugby teams. I've been having rugby fever lately. I can't get enough youtube Rugby. I wish I could go to more games. Its a real mans sport. And the mud makes it all that much more obvious.







Valentines Day, I have a date with Schnoox. We are going to Rugby, the spaghetti Opera, and stars.

I can't wait for school to start either. I've picked out my classes already. But I won't tell you what they are until they are finalized. Let me tell you that one of them is " Ausgewählte Themen der Internationalen Beziehungen"

We planned our trip to go see Sydney in March in Coppenhagen and I can't wait! Denmark is going to be a great time! It's by the sea which makes it that much more beautiful. I can't wait to see Sydney, I miss her! And i'm going with Gillian. and everyone knows that road trips are fun!.

For now, i'm just reading, running, sleeping, exploring and relaxing before classes start. There's not much else I can do. But I'll keep you updated.






So i'm not a stalker or dare say Vouyer. But i'm a certified people watcher. I don't get in their way. I just observe serence life from the outside.
I noticed this lady on the tram and couldn't take my eyes off her. She was knitting/sleeping the entire way from Heidelberg back to Mannheim. She was smiling to herself. I thought that was great. But... I wonder what she was thinking...


Till next time.

Back to Mannheim

As I sit and wait in the airport of Charlotte NC, I reminisce on every single day spent at home in lovely America with friends and family.. Loved every minute of it!

Now as I head back to the place I can call home, I think about all the things I want to do, things I'll regret not doing, all the people I will meet, all I people I have met, and all the things i'll have to talk about when I come home.

Its going to be one hell of a ride. Thankfully There are people who care about me to see me through every step of the way. even when shit gets rough (which it usually does).

Can't wait to see what each day has in store for me. If it's anything like the first semester in Mannheim i'm going to have to call in some reinforcement.

Auf Jeden Fall, See you in July. Talk to you soon. and Happy travels!


Goldfarb

To err is human, to forgive divine, to laugh. and move on.

I've always said a lot can happen in one month. So much has happened this month thats left me bewildered, confused, stronger, more intelligent, and just a tad more cautious. Where to begin?

I've spent most of this month with the most amazing people in the world. Friends <3. Not necessarily drinking, dancing and using illegal drugs the entire time (joke), but talking and laughing and relaxing.
Sure, the Economy sucks, unemployment is at an all time high, but that doesn't mean that spirits should suck as well.

Im a pure fan of optimism. It's one of God's greatest gifts. Think about it. Do things suck all the time? No. They get better. Have hope. God gives you obstacles in life to make you stronger to prepare you for what's ahead.
Hanging out with my Comrade for the day.... Well, I asked her... What the hell is up the road for me? Because i've taken some pretty impressive blows. She said? Nothing... You're being prepared to help other people, because you've already gone through it.
WOW
Good answer. And I've never really thought of it that way before.
Nothing's certain
Life's uncertain
Touche.
We make plans. But how often do we stick to them ?
We make resolutions. But how often do we resolve?
I believe in the stepping stones of life
I've seen so much life.

I think the root of all evil is ignorance. People don't know...
::uuuuhhh well I didn't know:::
Bullshit
Bad answer
But so true
We, as a people need to educate ourselves to protect ourselves.
We choose a leader to make decisions for us, because as we all know, someone out there always knows better than someone else.
I say this because I was listening to some ignorant asshole in the bar saying "we didn't have an inauguration yesterday, we had an In nig**ration (didn't wana spell it out, but you get the hint)
and I was thinking to myself... Wow, stop bitching and complaining unless you can do a better job.
Just think. If half the American's didn't know what was going on in the world, they could have elected Palin for president. If American's didn't know left from right there could be another (God Forbid) Adolf Hiter.
In order to prevent these things from happening again we need to know whats going on, what could happen, and why things happen.
So, I freak out about everything. EVERYTHING. High Anxiety, High stress. All the time.
The other night my car wouldn't start. In the middle of New Haven. Adamant that there was nothing wrong Stephan assured me that everything was going to be ok. Well. Me. I still freak out the rest of the night. (Of course). Coming back to the car at the end of the night he started the car right up. Chandler tells me... Oh, it's ok, new batterys don't like to be started in the cold.
::Sigh:: I didn't know that Chandler.
You see, education is everything. It can save you from everything from Stress to bad political leaders. Education is everything. Not a fancy 100,000 a year college, but education and knowledge as small as why a car won't start. I love school, but I have to admit that there's so much I don't know... There's sure of a hell a lot that I want to learn! Open your eyes, Open your ears, because you can learn something walking down the street for all you know.

Thinking about it. (Usually). I have learned alot. And although circumstance follows me around like a rainshower in Germany, I need to take it and run.
Sorry to all my avid blog followers that don't enjoy figurative language
It means that although bad circumstances usually find me wherever I am, I need to take them and use them to make me smarter and stronger.

Now I have to turn to the comical part of my blog...
I loved waking up and seeing a friends mug shot on TV.... I chose my friends wisely... this REALLY was a victim of bad circumstance. HAHAHHAHAH and he got the shit end of the stick.

Now I have to turn to the sad part of my blog... ( I hate this part)
I've learned over time to use humor to cover up most of the sad emotions. Sure, its good in the short run but in the long run covering up and disregarding how you really feel isn't healthy. I've had many people that have come and go. Last semester we lost two people that I graduated High School and grew up with. One of which was my sisters first boyfriend.
In a matter of 24 hours I lost two people that I knew. And one is seriously ill and has less than a week to live. One woman was there with me growing up, and the other was a friend and wasn't much older than me. The other is a friends mother who is dying in the hospital.
What am I really thinking? What am I saying to the families? my condolences? What the hell does that mean? Thats not what they want to hear. Only the good die young? HA. Definitely not what they want to hear.
This sucks.
Thats what they want to hear.
It really does... Suck.
It was an interesting 24 hours. lets just say that.

Life comes and goes.

Naja.


P.s.
The next blog will be a blog about Deja vú. I'm convinced.

So, for those that don't want to hear about life and mystery, only about drinking and bad habits.
I've everywhere from the Tequilla bar, to work, to NYC, to waterbury, to black bear for 9 hours, to pub quizzes ( We won!) to the movies (valkyrie was great) etc. etc.
There. Happy.

P.s.
I read a book.

So, Today I was at Aaron's Stepmothers house for dinner, and come to find out she is german! And her mother came over today and I got to speak German with her! They thought I was the cutest thing LOL. It was nice to speak German to them. They were adorable.

The world is smaller then you think.


Not an easy read today, next blog will be better.


Haiku

<3 A Red Shoe Affair <3

the rest of the year wasn't anything special, went to dinner with the family for New Years, then Jamie went out but i stayed home with Daddy. It's good to stay in and chill once and a while.

The ReD shoe affair:

January 3, 2009
Lisa and Gregs Wedding.

The wedding was beautiful! After all the stress that Lisa and greg went through, the wedding was beautiful, and everything that they hoped it would be. The ceremony was only about 20 minutes, she was crying walking down the isle, and greg said that he took lisa to be his lawfully wedded husband. hehe. Jamie and i couldn't stop snickering so taryn had to elbow us :-)

The reception itself was such a blast! The Waterview was luxurious, the music was great and we all looked amazzzzinnnggggg!!!!!
The food was delicious, I had the swordfish. The martini bar was set up in the corner and specialized in sweet martinis ;-) And the open bar was hehehe the greatest. It was soo much fun to dance with my family and kick back and celebrate like we all love to do.

Jamie and I had to give the speech to lisa (we knew this, but didn't have anything prepared) but we got up there and told the story.... of the red shoe. (which lisa was also wearing under her wedding dress).
The story of the red shoe is this.
A looong time ago I promised my best friends that when I get married I would still vow to be one of the girls. I vow that I will still have my freedom, passion and love of life that I have now, and will always have. Red shoes are a symbol for life and spirituality and freedom. What does the red shoe mean to you?




Everyone loved the outfits, everyone ADORED the red shoes, yet no one knew what it meant. After the speech they understood, I can't tell you how many woman took pictures of my shoes lol. I wore my black fidora hat with the red ribbon at the reception and Gary had his black fidora hat too we looked smashing together. Overall it went as any wedding and reception should go. Lots of crying and laughing. Tons of drinking and dancing. LOTS of FOOD! The best part!!!!! At weddings it it common to give a small favor to the guests to thank them for coming. Well. I look to the side of the room, and there was our favors... A candy bar! It looked like Willy Wonkas candy shop!!!!!!!! Everyone got red bags and got to fill them with candy from the candy bar! I'm talking bags of M&Ms, Milkyways, gum drops, snickers, reeses, it was amazing... It was like Halloween....
Gotta give props to Lisa for throwing such a killer wedding. I can't wait till my wedding!!!!!

Lisa is also a doll because shes letting me borrow her car while shes away on her cruise till next Sunday :-) It saves me some money, I'm still going to have to rent a car while i'm home because i'd like to work, but this is nice because its not costing me anything, man, I love freedom.

I'm getting depressed because i'm thinking about moving back to Mannheim. I like Germany, its beautiful and all, but I love America, seeing my friends and Daddy, and spending time at home.

Happy 2009!



Thats my Family!!!





Thats me, Daddy and herman <3

Excuse Me Mistress B... I love your shoes! Merry Happy 22nd New chrisimahanukwanzika!

WOW! I just realized that I haven't posted in quite some time. But this blog should be interesting :-)

This christmas break has been nothing but one long party and wedding preparations. From the moment I got back it was dress fittings, phone calls, seeing friends, bachelorette parties and food!

Christmas was awesome because all I wanted was to be with the entire family and relax which is what we did. Daddy made my all time favorite swordfish and I ate like a King.

Laura came and scooped me up one night and went to a party at her house. Ended up getting snowed in and drank and went shopping. It was so relaxing. I love my friends more than ever! <3

Our birthday party at BAR every year is usually something to remember... even though at that point in time we are not remembering much of anything. This year is was complete with cousins and friends. People that I love in my life, and were extremely glad they came out to help jamie and me celebrate our birthdays! A funny story at BAR tho... I went outside to curb ,y nicotine craving and dropped my cigarette. So without even thinking I said.. oh Scheiße...
Two men next to me look over and say... did you just say Scheiße? I said... um... yes?
and they started speaking german to me! I thought this was soo cool. Needless to say I didn't have to buy drinks all night... well.... I don't usually... But we took shot of Freiger all night. I introduced them to my friends and we danced and drank. Turns out, they were two German students here working on their post doc as surgeons at Yale. Cool eh? I had an amazing night. Thank you to everyone!









So that started the weekend of the parties. The next night Was Lisas Bachelorette party!!!!! A long time ago I was at brunch with Cliff in NYC around christmas (last year-seemed like forever) and we were sitting drinking Mamosas. I look over and see a bright pair of florescent lips attached to the building next door. I realize that it was a drag bar, cabaret restaurant and that I wanted my birthday party there!
Well.. We never had a birthday party there, but We did have lisas bachelorette party there last night! It was amazing! the drag queens were so funny, rude, and looked Gorgeous!!!!! They sang and acted like true Divas. The food was good, the people were loud, the stretch white limo was amazing, although we got into a slight limo accident coming back to CT that night...
Everyone looked great. and It was such a cool night. However... I am dead tired.














Tomorrow Stephen is taking me out for my birthday :-) and he wants to take me to the casino and to his favorite seafood restaurant. :-) I'm sure I'll have a blast.

new years eve soon follows and we plan to take Daddy to see that Nixon Frost movie that he wants to see, and then for some hibachi. I'm excited I get to spend new Years with Daddy and my sisters ! we will have fun i'm sure.

So far this vacation has been so relaxing! The wedding weekend is going to be rediculously crazy, but we are going to look so amazing in our red shoes... I should probably start working on my sister of the bride speech.... UHHO!!!!!!!

I don't feel like writing anymore...

I will update soon...
and anyway... pictures speak a thousand words.... and then some :-)

I love to live in America AY AY AY AY

Well, after 24 consecutive hours of traveling I have finally reached my destination. HOME SWEET AMERICA!

it was a long trip, but I managed to finally reach a state of composure and make it home in one piece. The anticipation was killing me.

My first night in my own bed was lovely thank you :-) The first day in America was absolutely wonderful! I slept late and had a niiiice cup of coffee :-) Then I got to spend the entire day with my herman! (twin sister). We went to a dress fitting for my sisters wedding! I got to see my other sister and we lauuughhhed and cried. It was lovely. The dress is going to look killer with my red shoes :-)

Then we went and ate chinese food like little pigs. The Chinese Buffet will never be the same after we left. The plan was to get some more junk food and go home löffel and watch movies, but a FANTASTIC surprise showed up at my doorstep AARON AND CHANDLER!!! Who are two of the greatest friends God gifted me with. I love those two! So we went for a ride and caught up on things. Then I went home and fell asleep watching requiem for a dream.

Right now I am on a conference call with Trina whose in New York now, Ena whose in Canada, Sydney who is still in Mannheim, and me who is now in Connecticut. :-) It's like old times.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

One door that shuts. But another one that opens

The hardest part of the semester is not moving in, meeting people, taking final exams, putting up with jean jacket jumpsuit wearing professors that hate you... The hardest part is saying goodbye. Everyone will go off in their own directions... who will look back? I will look back and cry.. I'll also look back and laugh. Ohhhh I will laugh and laugh and laugh.. I will laugh at the time we fell asleep on the train and woke up in Shönau.. or the first time we changed the trash bags together. AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH paper bag gloves and hair ties!!

Spring is coming and another group of exchange students, naive and young will come here to Mannheim, and again I will have to make new friends, and laugh at new jokes. But nothing and no one will ever take the place of you guys :-) We started together from the bitter beginning, and stuck it out thru till the bitter end. Went through ups and downs together, and we even shared times together when we couldn't tell the different between up or down... left or right.... night or day :-) I'll miss everything about this semester and I'll always miss you.

Mannheim. Represent. 08'