To err is human, to forgive divine, to laugh. and move on.

I've always said a lot can happen in one month. So much has happened this month thats left me bewildered, confused, stronger, more intelligent, and just a tad more cautious. Where to begin?

I've spent most of this month with the most amazing people in the world. Friends <3. Not necessarily drinking, dancing and using illegal drugs the entire time (joke), but talking and laughing and relaxing.
Sure, the Economy sucks, unemployment is at an all time high, but that doesn't mean that spirits should suck as well.

Im a pure fan of optimism. It's one of God's greatest gifts. Think about it. Do things suck all the time? No. They get better. Have hope. God gives you obstacles in life to make you stronger to prepare you for what's ahead.
Hanging out with my Comrade for the day.... Well, I asked her... What the hell is up the road for me? Because i've taken some pretty impressive blows. She said? Nothing... You're being prepared to help other people, because you've already gone through it.
WOW
Good answer. And I've never really thought of it that way before.
Nothing's certain
Life's uncertain
Touche.
We make plans. But how often do we stick to them ?
We make resolutions. But how often do we resolve?
I believe in the stepping stones of life
I've seen so much life.

I think the root of all evil is ignorance. People don't know...
::uuuuhhh well I didn't know:::
Bullshit
Bad answer
But so true
We, as a people need to educate ourselves to protect ourselves.
We choose a leader to make decisions for us, because as we all know, someone out there always knows better than someone else.
I say this because I was listening to some ignorant asshole in the bar saying "we didn't have an inauguration yesterday, we had an In nig**ration (didn't wana spell it out, but you get the hint)
and I was thinking to myself... Wow, stop bitching and complaining unless you can do a better job.
Just think. If half the American's didn't know what was going on in the world, they could have elected Palin for president. If American's didn't know left from right there could be another (God Forbid) Adolf Hiter.
In order to prevent these things from happening again we need to know whats going on, what could happen, and why things happen.
So, I freak out about everything. EVERYTHING. High Anxiety, High stress. All the time.
The other night my car wouldn't start. In the middle of New Haven. Adamant that there was nothing wrong Stephan assured me that everything was going to be ok. Well. Me. I still freak out the rest of the night. (Of course). Coming back to the car at the end of the night he started the car right up. Chandler tells me... Oh, it's ok, new batterys don't like to be started in the cold.
::Sigh:: I didn't know that Chandler.
You see, education is everything. It can save you from everything from Stress to bad political leaders. Education is everything. Not a fancy 100,000 a year college, but education and knowledge as small as why a car won't start. I love school, but I have to admit that there's so much I don't know... There's sure of a hell a lot that I want to learn! Open your eyes, Open your ears, because you can learn something walking down the street for all you know.

Thinking about it. (Usually). I have learned alot. And although circumstance follows me around like a rainshower in Germany, I need to take it and run.
Sorry to all my avid blog followers that don't enjoy figurative language
It means that although bad circumstances usually find me wherever I am, I need to take them and use them to make me smarter and stronger.

Now I have to turn to the comical part of my blog...
I loved waking up and seeing a friends mug shot on TV.... I chose my friends wisely... this REALLY was a victim of bad circumstance. HAHAHHAHAH and he got the shit end of the stick.

Now I have to turn to the sad part of my blog... ( I hate this part)
I've learned over time to use humor to cover up most of the sad emotions. Sure, its good in the short run but in the long run covering up and disregarding how you really feel isn't healthy. I've had many people that have come and go. Last semester we lost two people that I graduated High School and grew up with. One of which was my sisters first boyfriend.
In a matter of 24 hours I lost two people that I knew. And one is seriously ill and has less than a week to live. One woman was there with me growing up, and the other was a friend and wasn't much older than me. The other is a friends mother who is dying in the hospital.
What am I really thinking? What am I saying to the families? my condolences? What the hell does that mean? Thats not what they want to hear. Only the good die young? HA. Definitely not what they want to hear.
This sucks.
Thats what they want to hear.
It really does... Suck.
It was an interesting 24 hours. lets just say that.

Life comes and goes.

Naja.


P.s.
The next blog will be a blog about Deja vú. I'm convinced.

So, for those that don't want to hear about life and mystery, only about drinking and bad habits.
I've everywhere from the Tequilla bar, to work, to NYC, to waterbury, to black bear for 9 hours, to pub quizzes ( We won!) to the movies (valkyrie was great) etc. etc.
There. Happy.

P.s.
I read a book.

So, Today I was at Aaron's Stepmothers house for dinner, and come to find out she is german! And her mother came over today and I got to speak German with her! They thought I was the cutest thing LOL. It was nice to speak German to them. They were adorable.

The world is smaller then you think.


Not an easy read today, next blog will be better.


Haiku

<3 A Red Shoe Affair <3

the rest of the year wasn't anything special, went to dinner with the family for New Years, then Jamie went out but i stayed home with Daddy. It's good to stay in and chill once and a while.

The ReD shoe affair:

January 3, 2009
Lisa and Gregs Wedding.

The wedding was beautiful! After all the stress that Lisa and greg went through, the wedding was beautiful, and everything that they hoped it would be. The ceremony was only about 20 minutes, she was crying walking down the isle, and greg said that he took lisa to be his lawfully wedded husband. hehe. Jamie and i couldn't stop snickering so taryn had to elbow us :-)

The reception itself was such a blast! The Waterview was luxurious, the music was great and we all looked amazzzzinnnggggg!!!!!
The food was delicious, I had the swordfish. The martini bar was set up in the corner and specialized in sweet martinis ;-) And the open bar was hehehe the greatest. It was soo much fun to dance with my family and kick back and celebrate like we all love to do.

Jamie and I had to give the speech to lisa (we knew this, but didn't have anything prepared) but we got up there and told the story.... of the red shoe. (which lisa was also wearing under her wedding dress).
The story of the red shoe is this.
A looong time ago I promised my best friends that when I get married I would still vow to be one of the girls. I vow that I will still have my freedom, passion and love of life that I have now, and will always have. Red shoes are a symbol for life and spirituality and freedom. What does the red shoe mean to you?




Everyone loved the outfits, everyone ADORED the red shoes, yet no one knew what it meant. After the speech they understood, I can't tell you how many woman took pictures of my shoes lol. I wore my black fidora hat with the red ribbon at the reception and Gary had his black fidora hat too we looked smashing together. Overall it went as any wedding and reception should go. Lots of crying and laughing. Tons of drinking and dancing. LOTS of FOOD! The best part!!!!! At weddings it it common to give a small favor to the guests to thank them for coming. Well. I look to the side of the room, and there was our favors... A candy bar! It looked like Willy Wonkas candy shop!!!!!!!! Everyone got red bags and got to fill them with candy from the candy bar! I'm talking bags of M&Ms, Milkyways, gum drops, snickers, reeses, it was amazing... It was like Halloween....
Gotta give props to Lisa for throwing such a killer wedding. I can't wait till my wedding!!!!!

Lisa is also a doll because shes letting me borrow her car while shes away on her cruise till next Sunday :-) It saves me some money, I'm still going to have to rent a car while i'm home because i'd like to work, but this is nice because its not costing me anything, man, I love freedom.

I'm getting depressed because i'm thinking about moving back to Mannheim. I like Germany, its beautiful and all, but I love America, seeing my friends and Daddy, and spending time at home.

Happy 2009!



Thats my Family!!!





Thats me, Daddy and herman <3