NO MORE PENCILS NO MORE BOOKS!!!!

No more pencils, no more books!!!

Although I really fell in love with the library....


I can't believe I'm done! I learned alot this semester. It was a damn hard semester too. Between learning to live in a foreign country, making new friends, learning German... learning to live a completely different way.... Next semester I should be all set then and can breeze through school!??? I can't wait to come home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Christmas should be a good time. I just can't wait to see my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SASSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH SWEET HOMECOMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A dragon who wears braces

Dragon

To see a dragon in your dream, signifies that you tend to let yourself get carried away by your passion. This kind of behavior may lead you into trouble. You need to exercise some self-control.

In the eastern cultures, dragons are seen as spiritual creatures symbolizing good luck and fortune.

To dream that you are a dragon and breathing fire and everyone, suggests that you are using your anger to get your own way.


Braces:

To dream that you have braces, indicates that you should not be so quick to criticize. You should stop talking too much and listen to what others have to say. It may also indicate your brashness. The dream may also be a pun on "brace yourself"

Its just a big fat whatever

It's all a whatever to me now. I'm done. I'm over with it. I built my bridge. Whatever. Whatever. and a big fat... Whatever.


Planning, creating, hoping, empty dreams and plans with no fulfillment.

Selfishness is a heartbreaker. Hope I never become that selfish. I hope I never grow old as to become a spinster, who sits and rocks. Bitter and vile to no end.

Whatever.


This is my rant.

I am done. No... really done. I don't care what you do. You can think whatever you want, be whatever you want, wear whatever you want, and do whatever the hell you want. Who am I to care anymore.

You must wear big shoes.. because when you stepped on me. It really hurt.

An Oasis of Red Shoes

I suppose life is getting easier... slowly... by the day... I sleep most of the day now so I don't have to deal. I've been working diligently on my website, and a video project for all my friends before they go back to their countries, but that doesn't involve me leaving my room. I don't have classes anymore, I only have one more test... this coming Wednesday, for which I am going to study until I can't study no' mo. This is the worst part of the semester. Having to put on face and suck up the *holiday spirit* and say goodbye to those who actually made staying here worthwhile. This sucks.

The ones that were here for you most aren't here anymore, and those who pretended are gone to. On a lighter note, I think blogging is a new hobby. (loooooserrrrr). I stumbled across a blog yesterday which I will follow for everrrrr. The Red shoe oasis. Its a blog featuring the work of one lady artist, who depicts red shoes in all sorts of occurrences. SO AWESOME. Her artwork is noteworthy and I hope to own one. The quest for the perfect red shoe is my life. It represents so much more than an aesthetically pleasing piece of footwear. Its an icon for all that is good in the world. 4 years ago when I made that promise to my best friend I said, no matter what happens I will always be one of *the girls* and I'll never forget the way that dancing has and will always make me feel. The feelings of being uninhibited and the implicit right to freedom that life entails are also part of the red shoe saga.

I guess it's back to the video project... maybe the website. I like projects to keep my mind busy. I'll go running a little later on. Then Hazel and Sydney are making korean food tonight, I volunteered to bring the fortune cookies. (running joke).

Parting is such sweet sorrow. Atleast I have my amazing friends in america to pull me through!

<3

Herzlichen Danke Day <3 and a bit of holiday cheer

With all the hustle and bustle of life, I almost forgot to write about the American's first Thanksgiving in Germany!
Since the beginning of time... ok, Summer Academy, we were talking about how great this Thanksgiving is going to be. Yes, indeed. And some party it was!

Complete with Stove Top stuffing and Turkey that was cooked to Golden Brown Perfection. Oh yes. Our families will be proud one day. The homemade mashed potatoes were cooked to a fantastic consistency, and the homemade apple pie melted in your mouth, with just the right sized scoop of ice cream. It kind of made me want to jump a banana boat back to the U.s.
George was here spending the Thanksgiving Weekend with me.. I can't believe it was only last week! Getting all the American's together was fun. We got to speak English! Teach a swedish how to play flip cup, and even got in a game or two of beer pong. American beer games are sooooo fun! But the Europeans don't play with their food...

Overall, I think the pictures speak for themselves.

The day after we got to go ice skating infront of the Schwetzingen Castle. That was awesome! I had never ice skated before (only with shoes... but I have rollerbladed before. Psh Ice skating? piece of cake!
At the end of the few hours ice skating I was doing pirouettes and tricks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The only time I fell ( I only fell twice) Was because I was trying a new trick!!! Ice skating is so much fun that I can't wait to go again!!!!!!
Pictures also to follow.

The best part about the winters here is the Glühwine... Its hot apple cider.. but its wine!
I love the holidays <3

By the way GLoria! You did NOT warn me that we would have to take out the neck of the turkey! That was not in my life manual.....

3rd floor himmel

I should have known that the library was NOT a good place to come study, especially during finals week. There is absolutely NO place to study!! Now, if you've ever seen my library you wouldn't know where to start looking. Nestled in between shelves of books are long tables for students to work. Its the greatest study set up in the world. Complete with personal reading lamp, an electrical outlet of all your own, and if you need it, a place for your ethernet cable. Well... all of these seats were taken, as well as the standing tables, as WELL as the quite comfy chairs. I was like... what the hell? I have a law final in an hour.. where the hell am i gona sit? So I sat down in a random chair and looked up to answer my prayers. ALAS! A hidden floor, looking down over the mass studiers. This place was heaven. I get my own little table, my own desk, and my own garbage can! No one will bother me, and I don't have other people to distract me! The only other people that are up here are my fellow mac users. Oh I love this library.

Good luck to me!

And I got the greatest news ever!!!!

The United States is up for a case infront of the WTO doher rounds. Apparently they thought it would be ok to break anti-dumping laws... silly americans. But they decided to open the case for public viewing! AND GUESS WHO GETS A SEAT!!! If all goes well with finals and other things, I will get to go to Geneva Switzerland on December 12 to hear the WTO! JA WOHL!
Thats soo cool!

Shake your teather fail- and I'll have an Eternal bliss straight up with a shot of pure neuroticism

I was talking to a good friend today and he told me a story that really made me think. He asked me to write about what I thought.

You think you know someone and it turns out you really didn't know them at all. You can spend your whole life learning about someone, but it turns out that they're really not who they say they are. The mind and body are two separate entities. Most peoples behaviors are determined by actions and motivations deep within. Thats why the balance between a healthy mind and a healthy body are very important. The ability of people to metamorph into a completely different person is incredible, which surprises those around them. The phrase "but i never saw it coming," is not really naivety at all its sheer obliviousness. Didn't you see the signs? We all ignore the warnings, we are all wrapped up in commercialism, expensive gym memberships, fancy clothes and tricked out cars. The transition from the life of commodities to a life of simplicity is never an easy one, but ridding yourself of tangible objects will improve the mind greatly. Exercising the mind as well as the body is the most important thing you can invest in. Without all these *things* around you to mask the unhappiness, warning signs can be more easily detected and treated.

To those that don't know I can't really explain, but to those who do: This is my answer.

I think a vacation is needed, but not to a fancy country with a nice hostel bed. But a vacation to the Heimatland. aka the U.S.A
I can't wait to go home and see my family. It sucks for those people who don't get to go home for the holidays, but i could never stay away that long. Holidays are for family time. Plus, its my birthday :-) Its not that I don't like Germany for what it is. The Germans are happy .... 12 days out of the year. Too drunk to enjoy the other 353. It is never sunny, and It is always dreary and sad. Sydney got yelled at for coughing in a shop yesterday.. that should tell you something. I was thinking maybe it was just us that had the bad luck with the Germans, but even the Germans at school agree that this is a weird semester for everyone... they said that normally exchange students have the times of their lives, but this semester is different and people can't wait to take a one way ticket out of here. Yet, they can't offer an explanation as to why.... Strange

This weekend started off as a honeymoon that I never wanted to end. I can't offer much more to the story, but lets say that i found myself in a whirlwind of unnecessary-ness. I shouldn't really be dealing with this. But as most people say, You put yourself in these situations. I can honestly say, despite preceded warning... I never saw this one coming. I'm not a hypocrite, I might be naive... whatever the antecedents-Depression and heartbrokenness are the results. It sucks to say that the person there for me most while I was here is gone now. Don't know if he'll ever be back. This new years I vow that the resolutions should be to tame the mind and the body. Putting mental health on the top list of priorities, and trying to stop masking what's behind the mirror.